I was going to create a new blog page in tumblr but then I remember this site keke. So here I am ready to bursts out my feelings with words. I just hope I can express it in words, because the truth is I'm no good in putting it into words. Anyways, let me start by saying I'm struggling with my feelings for someone, I don't know but do you remember that guy whom I said he's harder than a headache!? Well, surprisingly he's still the reason for this sentiments. I don't know if I'm in love  or whatever but I'm sure my feelings for that guy haven't change since the day I knew what I feel.about him. He's older than me I think 2 years older than me, he has a humor, yes looks is included, his personality is good too, but what attracted me most is how he is serving God. I've seen him had lots of girls then had a heartbreak and during those days I wasn't feeling anything for him so it was okay. He even get involved with one of my cellmates, and I admit I'm one of the persons who tease them to be together. But now, what I've done felt like a slapped on my face. I feel jealous whenever he talks with his ex's or with other girls. What is this I'm being rude, he wasn't even interested in me. I've been praying to God for Him to remove this feelings but months had past still my feelings haven't change. Oh my I'm inlove to someone who doesn't even sees me as a woman. Yayks to bad for me. But then, sometimes I get confused with my feelings there are times where I feel like I want to see him badly but when I see him my heartbeat goes back to its normal range and it felt like I'm just fine. Well, with my parents and family standards you can't enter in a relationship while you are studying. I know, I know, that's why I wanted this to end. I just want to be me like old times no more attachments. And I just want this feeling to be clear.