Here we go again.. I admit there are times where I really wanted to give up! But there are still part of me that I wanted to hold on to that hope that I have within. What I felt yesterday was really really a push to the edge of my patience. I tried to keep strong but then I gave up I broke down and started crying.. Then I asked Him, Lord! if You know that this was going to happen why didn't you tell me? Why did you let me prepare all the way but didn't let me at least sit on my chair to take my exam. You know and you saw it how I pave for it even I don't like.. Honestly I felt a little grouch yesterday, I wanted to rebel against Him. But still I attended the sunday service and there the church leaders prayed for me not only me but to the souls who needs prayers. I was thankful for that I felt relief and then our pastor's wife hold my hand she prayed and anoint it. She told me that God wanted me to see miracles far above what I could imagine. She was giving me some instructions that I need to put my hands on mama and she would be healed only then if I believe. She also said that I need to pray for courage in order to do that. I felt joy after that conversation and prayer. But still I wasn't feeling okay because I still remember what had happened. Maybe this are what they called tough times! and this is really TRUST HIM in tough times! Lord, I don't know but I wanted to tell You that I am sorry, sorry if I underestimated you and if I have putted you in a box. Lord you know what scares me and that is the future. I don't really understand why You put that confidence in me. Lord I really don't know what You are doing I really don't know. And there's nothing left in me but to trust You.