This heart is always waiting, waiting for you. But the saddest part is you don't know that I am waiting. But it doesn't matter anyway, what matter is you're happy. This just got to be great waiting.... waiting in vain. I don't really know if you know but seriously I don't want you to know. I want to keep it. as a memory as a feeling, one of the bests feelings I would feel alone... alone with God and some trusted friends. Sometimes I get scared, scared that you'll know, and sometimes when I'm jealous I'm in rush to let you know. "Know" it gets repeated, because I want it then later not. My feelings, still I'm not sure... I'm still hoping.. but still praying if this is real or just infatuation. My prayer is not to own you my prayer is to let me know the truth, even if the truth and His will is to set you free. I know at first it would be very painful, because it took me years to realize this and because I kept this feeling for a very long and silent time. But I don't want to argue, and I don't want us to be in pain and hurt each other. I want to set you free, not you exactly but this feelings that each day grew and I don't know how to tame it. and at the end of the day I still rely to the will of God. but 'till now I still ....love you....